my career path

what shall i write about today.... mmnn let's see

today started very well, i got on bus 88, got a window seat. i really enjoyed the view as today, the sky is beautiful... really really good to have the sky to look at, to admire before i start the hectic day ahead.

was talking to a colleague later part of the day, came to a realization that, All of us will not be colleagues forever. We will have to leave the company. Will i be sad to leave the job? no, i don't think so. cause my next job will be along the same line. But i will definitely miss the people. definitely. are there people who stay in a job for many many years, just for the people?

well some days, i really wish that i have more passion for my job. But there are also days when i'm sitting besides the patient's bed, listening to their stories and I feel lucky. I feel lucky that part of job actually involve talking to these strangers, these patients. I know i learn a lot from them, directly or indirectly. I think i am in the right line. Cannot imagine me feeling happy about doing anything.... other than... being a PT, newspaper seller, paramedic, dancer, etc....

hahaha

ok ok.... the list goes on and on actually. Well i guess most of us usually wished we are doing something else or we are at somewhere else. The most important thing is, there are moments which suddenly hit u that u love your job. I have such moments, and i love my job cause of such moments. No matter how rare.

bubbling

i am trying to stop myself. stop myself from being too eager, too easy, too hopeful. some people i know told me that i live in a bubble. at times, i don't know what they mean. but i think i already do.

my coping mechanism.... bubbling

definition of bubbling - blinding myself, protecting myself so that the world around me remains safe. remains happy. remains familiar.

A start

well, my work place is starting a blog for the department, so i guess perhaps i am also caught in the blogging fever.... a little too late though. (what's new).

okie the reason for the address first.... i am basically, generally, someone who take things very easy. Very few people will describe me as moody, gloomy and melancholic. In fact, i think overall i am quite a positive person.

But the thoughts that play in my head when i'm alone are at times sappy ones....  so i guess if i have a blog, i will tend to blog the sappy stuffs, BUT it does not mean that i'm sad, it's just that at the point of blogging, i have not so happy thoughts. so friends, who actually read this blog, please read it without worries. i'm not depressed.