all this waiting, is causing me not to live my life to the fullest. It is really very hard for me to explain in words, but i constantly remind myself, don't wait. Live now. You never really know whether tomorrow will come. so live now.
Currently, my mood has been up and downs... if i am really honest with myself. i think i do not have the passion at work. Whether this passion will ever come, i don't know. what i know is that i cannot wait for the passion to come. must there be passion? who says there must be passion anyways. sigh sigh.... i don't think i am making any sense at all actually.
maybe i am feeling a bit down because i did not hear from the new job that i am waiting for... so sad. now i feel stuck. in the first place, i was still undecided about changing job, but now that the option to leave seems to be nil, i feel stuck there. I need something new but will a new job spark my passion? I really don't know.... maybe i am just not a very passionate person. I don't want to be like this, i want to live my life to the fullest. but inside me, i can never really be passionate about things, or maybe outwardly i never show it.... i don't know. i realise the more i write, the confuse i get. i shall stop here.
